
Chronicles
Dr. Eva Natanya reflects on our first five years as a true "Center for Contemplative Research," as well as the beauty and difficulties of long-term mind training in solitude.
We have an intrepid mission at the core of our work at the CCR, to create conducive conditions for dedicated practitioners to train their minds in rigorous, long-term retreat, with the aspiration to cultivate sublime levels of mental balance and compassion, and to gain transformative insights into the nature of reality.
But if you’ve read Benjamin’s beautiful account in our last Chronicle, you might have gathered by now that the typical day-to-day experience of long-term retreat is not always characterized by blissful meditations and profound discoveries. Indeed, many retreatants report going through some of the most challenging experiences of their lives—emotionally, physically, and spiritually. But why?
Nyam—Meditative Experiences in Retreat
As prospective retreatants prepare for their yearned-for solitude and silence—with nothing else to do all day but practice Dharma—they learn about something the Tibetan Buddhist tradition has termed nyam. This can be roughly translated as “structured experiences,” or more specifically “meditative experiences.” It is not as though all these experiences happen while formally meditating, however. Rather, these include a wide range of physical, mental, and emotional experiences that arise as a result of a correct practice of meditation, and which can happen either during meditation or anytime between sessions.
These experiences are a by-product of the crucial process of dredging and purifying the many layers of the mind, which naturally involves uncovering buried traumas, insecurities, habitual attitudes, misconceptions, memories of one’s own positive and negative actions, and at a very raw level, tasting what it feels like to grasp to “me.” That is, we begin to recognize the root of our suffering in the experience of holding onto a prelinguistic construct of “me” that is actually unfounded in reality. But it can be quite a shock to discover that the “me” I thought was there doesn’t exist in the way that I thought, and never has. And sometimes the mind and body temporarily rebound into grasping more tightly than before.
Perhaps needless to say, such experiences are not always fun. Yet, if one is properly trained in how to remain grounded in the stillness of awareness and observe these experiences without following one’s ingrained habit of grasping to them or identifying with them as really being “mine,” they can naturally release themselves. Because the experiences are being catalyzed from within the depths of one’s psyche, and are naturally impermanent, if one ceases to fuel them with grasping and fretting, they will eventually exhaust themselves and disappear.
It takes an enormous amount of confidence in one’s teachers and the path that has been explained by countless contemplatives of the past for one to have the courage to endure such experiences while they are occurring. But as one continues in the practice of meditation, dwelling in the stillness of awareness as mental processes arise and cease of their own accord, there is a deep and quiet reward in knowing that the mind is being purified from within. One gains the confidence of being able to face one’s innermost demons and not be conquered by them.
The profound purification catalyzed by meditation may surface not only at the psychological level but also at the physical level, leading to strange and sometimes disturbing experiences of energies coursing or jolting through one’s body. This release of subtle energies (or prana) within the body can sometimes revive pain from old injuries, create new physical pains, or even trigger both diagnosable illnesses and undiagnosable issues. But it can also gradually heal deep-seated residues of trauma.
Even more surprisingly, the purification process that is brought about through one’s authentic practice of meditation in retreat can catalyze what are known as “outer upheavals,” or events in one’s external life and environment that are all too real, and that can indeed threaten to distract from or hinder one’s ability to remain in the silent retreat to which one is committed.
A practitioner must then discern very carefully to see what situation, without doubt, needs one’s attention through loving and compassionate action, and what distraction may simply be a temptation to abandon retreat practice, yet without one’s actually being able to benefit the outer situation by leaving retreat, either.
Navigating Serious Psychological Upheavals
Frankly, one needs to be quite psychologically healthy and balanced even before entering retreat in order to have the capacity to sustain retreat practice joyfully and successfully amid such an array of unpredictable meditative experiences, which arise differently for every person. The CCR’s Sixfold Matrix of Mental Balance is being developed as a training program that can guide practitioners in assessing and enhancing their own mental balance, whether they choose to remain engaged in the world or are preparing for solitary retreat. At a physical level, some practitioners may also benefit from time-tested, professionally guided methods of somatic trauma release before engaging in extended periods of solitude.
Yet sometimes individuals discover the depths of hidden psychological imbalances only once in retreat—even years into a retreat. Since our inception as a mind lab/hermitage, we have always had a team of experienced psychologists available for confidential consultation with any retreatant, whether by video call or in person. Different levels of care are offered depending on someone’s situation, and if a deep crisis arises, psychologists are ready to offer close care as needed. This remains private to the individual retreatant, and fellow solitary retreatants would usually not know and do not need to know when psychological care is being provided for a fellow retreatant. At such times, however, it is crucial for retreatants to consult with their spiritual teachers to discern whether it may be the right time to depart from retreat in order to recalibrate and seek healing through sustained professional assistance, as well as through regular contact with supportive friends and family. Indeed, there are times when the nature of an issue that has arisen is so acute that it is not healthy for a person to remain in solitude, and in such cases we, as spiritual teachers, have encouraged such a person to depart from retreat.
In other cases, certain individuals can discern that they have the capacity to continue full-time retreat practice straight through the particular psychological or physical upheaval, and see that they will find deeper healing right there within retreat than they might ever be able to do out in the world. This path of manifest healing has occurred numerous times for retreatants at the CCR and is a source of great joy for all of us. More details on the theory behind meditative experiences and how practicing with them properly can enable one to proceed further along the path of meditation will be the subject of a future Chronicle. Suffice it to say, one needs a profound view of reality to be able to release such intense experiences without grasping to them as if they really exist in the way that they appear.
Understanding Different Models of Retreat Life
Since our first group of retreatants began long-term retreat at the newly-founded Center for Contemplative Research in November 2020, we have certainly learned a great deal about the enormous variety of meditative experiences—both difficult and very beautiful—that can occur for different individuals.
As Dr. B. Alan Wallace has emphasized many times, we are breaking new ground in our efforts to establish a retreat center in the West where the focus is explicitly on creating the conducive conditions for retreatants to practice single-pointed meditation with the aspiration of entering the Mahayana Path. This means that we practice in sustained solitude and silence with the aspiration to develop sufficient stability of mind and openness of heart to bring about lasting and irreversible change in our own being, to embody the compassionate motivation to be of highest service to all sentient beings.
There are of course retreat centers around the world, many based in different spiritual traditions, which are focused on similar overall goals. But the model of long-term, solitary practice that we emphasize at the CCR is admittedly more rigorous than at most retreat centers or even monasteries in the East or West.
Most Christian monastic or lay intentional communities gather regularly (daily or weekly) in service and liturgy to reaffirm the communal aspect of individuals’ commitment to a certain vision and form of spiritual practice. Within the Buddhist tradition, especially as established in the West, rituals and meditations practiced as a community are a regular part of even the strictest of retreat periods. Think of your typical image of a Zen monastery or a Tibetan three-year retreat, where formal group practice is an integral part of the discipline.
Our CCR Mind Lab in Colorado is in part modelled on a different style of retreat, one which has been common in Tibet, Bhutan, Nepal, and India, but which has fewer precedents in the West. This is a model in which a group of individual retreatants would be spread out across a mountainside or valley, each in their own small dwellings, each under the guidance of their own teacher, keeping to their solitary practice for months or years at a time. There would be a loose-knit association among these practitioners, such that they would know if someone was ill or needed emergency assistance, but they would never meet together for group rituals or communal practice. All practice is performed in solitude within their individual huts. In Christian monastic history, this would be closer to the eremetic desert tradition, as distinct from the cenobitic monastic tradition.
What We’ve Observed and How We’ve Adjusted
In our first few years as a CCR, we tried our best to follow this solitary retreat model closely, as it has proven for centuries to be the most conducive model for attaining states of meditative stability such as shamatha, as well as deeper insights into the nature of reality. We discovered over time, however, that while such solitude and silence certainly enabled retreatants to delve deeply into their meditative practice, long-term retreatants were not always able to weather the enormity of the meditative experiences catalyzed without more regular, structured community interaction and ongoing teachings from their spiritual mentors.
We also gradually recognized that while retreatants all had a good deal of training in core practices prior to entering retreat at the CCR, many had not yet been sufficiently prepared to sustain the level of strict retreat to which they originally aspired (e.g., 8–12 hours a day of meditation). That is, some retreatants dove in with gusto and could maintain this intensity of practice for weeks or even a few months at a time, but then would find themselves overwhelmed by a particular meditative experience or upheaval (as described above), which would inevitably break the continuity of their meditation. If, over many cycles of effort and interruption, the disturbing experience lingered without releasing, then remaining in silent solitude would sometimes seem like an oppressive prison sentence rather than the liberative retreat they had been seeking.
The Importance of Maintaining Continuous Practice Through Silence
Sometimes, however, the urge to interact socially seemed to fall to another extreme, with conversations among retreatants burgeoning for hours upon a chance meeting in the community building or along the hermitage roads. There were times when we, as spiritual guides, needed to experiment by expressing clearer guidelines around maintaining silence in community spaces, so as to preserve the atmosphere and safety of silence for other retreatants who were still in the flow of their practice and would not want to be drawn into long conversations. Trips away from the hermitage for medical appointments are on occasion necessary for retreatants, and our retreat boundaries are not so strict as to prevent this. Nevertheless, at times we asked retreatants not to engage in conversation during the long drive with one of our caretakers, and also not to extend the trip with personal grocery shopping or a meal at a restaurant, which we all know so well can disrupt the single-pointed flow of long-term retreat (in which, traditionally, one would not go into a town at all). Rather, since our retreat caretakers, or stewards, are already responsible for obtaining groceries for retreatants on a weekly basis, retreatants should not have the need to go into public places separately. Such temporary rules were intended to help retreatants settle into a more habitual mode of silence and sustained practice, but we also saw that when some retreatants seemed to struggle with such guidelines, it was because something deeper was not yet balanced in their overall life of retreat. We recognized that these were times to encourage retreatants to delve more deeply into the overarching motivation for retreat, cultivating a heart-rending compassion for the suffering of all beings and an understanding of how the discipline of retreat—which includes refraining from distractions—can be in direct service of the much larger goal of cultivating irreversible transformation of one’s mind and habituations.
More recently, we have not even found it necessary to emphasize such guidelines on physical and verbal retreat boundaries, because, as our hermitage community matures at many levels, we have found that retreatants more naturally maintain silence as a matter of course. Current retreatants are inclined to greet one another in total silence, expressing a respectful gesture of warm-hearted kindness and admiration without needing to engage in conversation. Moreover, we have seen that open conversation among retreatants on the day of our now-regular (monthly) gatherings can then be welcomed as healthy and refreshing, since it does not then become a persistent mode of distraction from the main work of retreat.
Reporting to Teachers on One’s Practice
We have also experimented with different rhythms for retreatants’ reports on their meditation practice. At the end of 2020, Dr. Wallace developed a set of eight questions by which he asked all CCR retreatants to report regularly, via email, on their practice. These eight questions cover topics from the hours each day devoted to shamatha and other supporting meditations, inquiring about how meaningful each of these practices is for the retreatant, about challenges one has been facing and how one has dealt with them, about meditative experiences (nyam) and insights that may be arising, about how one is maintaining balance in practice both during formal sessions and between sessions, about how one is maintaining overall health in terms of diet and exercise, and about how one is finding satisfaction in the practice.
For most of the first two years of our existence as a hermitage, Dr. Wallace was providing guidance from afar, both through monthly video calls with our community and through private email exchanges in response to retreatants’ monthly written reports, as prompted by the eight questions. Doug Veenhof and I were present on-site for meetings when requested by individual retreatants, and occasionally I would hold scheduled check-ins with each retreatant. Individual meetings with Lama Alan were rare, occurring only when he would visit to lead one-week or eight-week retreats.
At the beginning of 2023, Dr. Wallace (also known as Lama Alan) entered his own long-awaited personal retreat in Crestone, and urged all retreatants to enter that deep silence with him. For six months, he no longer asked for monthly written reports, but invited retreatants to write to him only if they discerned that it was really necessary, that is, if they had an urgent issue for which they sought personal guidance. By the end of those first six months of 2023, however, Lama Alan and I were deeply saddened to discover that most retreatants had struggled through that period of strict retreat, which had included one in-person meeting with Lama Alan for each of them midway. We realized in retrospect that the majority had not reached out, even when issues had actually arisen in their retreats that should have received our attention. We saw from our experiment in strict silence that at that juncture, even experienced retreatants were not yet ready to remain in a flow of completely uninterrupted retreat for six months. So we again decided to require written reports—now submitted every other month—as the standard for all retreatants’ regular communication with Lama Alan, our spiritual director.
Community Gatherings, Ongoing Teachings, and Individual Meetings
From mid-2023, we also continued to experiment with different cadences for our community gatherings and teachings. We met for group rituals and teachings from Lama Alan in August and October, and then, beginning in November 2023, Lama Alan began offering public teachings roughly every six weeks, which we gradually made available to our larger local community and also online here.
From the beginning of 2025, we established a monthly rhythm that has seemed to work as our most conducive cadence for retreatants thus far. We now alternate monthly between a short teaching followed by a community ritual practice, and a longer teaching geared toward experienced retreatants. Collectively, these are the teachings we now make available to the public through the Seeds of Wisdom Library.
We have clarified for all retreatants that they are welcome to reach out to Lama Alan with a practice question between bimonthly reports, and we are finding that retreatants do so when appropriate. Lama Alan is of course willing to break his own retreat silence to hold an individual meeting with a retreatant when a clear need arises, though such occasions are relatively rare. Retreatants also reach out to resident teacher Doug Veenhof or to me to discuss particular issues in their practice, whether by email, phone, or in person.
Overall, meetings are held on an individual, as-needed basis, and not as a regularly scheduled part of retreat life, which helps to preserve the flow of silence for all of us at the hermitage between monthly community gatherings. When they occur, one-on-one meetings with a spiritual teacher can range in length from 30 minutes to 2 or 3 hours.
While we as teachers cannot magically make the internal process of purifying the mind and body through intensive meditation practice easy, we do sense that we have found more sustainable ways to help practitioners through these difficult and highly rewarding experiences of transformation.
As explained below, we have also modified the way that we guide retreatants into retreat in the first place, which has had a noticeably beneficial effect in the many short- and long-term retreats that were begun throughout the past year.
A Progressive Model of Retreat Structure: Level-One, Level-Two, and Level-Three Retreat
There are numerous authoritative Buddhist texts that state one can ideally achieve the state of shamatha—a transformative level of meditative stability—within six or nine months of continuous practice in retreat. But what is not always clear is how far along the path of spiritual maturity and transformation one needs to have come already in order for such a period of unbroken meditation to be successful.
That is, how many years might one have needed to prepare the mind and body through well-rounded, full-time spiritual practice in solitude and in community before one is ready to embark upon a particular six- or nine-month period of retreat and then continue meditating in an uninterrupted retreat schedule for that entire period, in order for shamatha to come to fruition in one’s mind and body? How can one prepare so as not to encounter such intense upheavals that one is actually derailed from the continuity of meditation again and again?
We discovered within the initial years of the CCR’s existence that we needed to dispel the idea that one could come straight from twenty-first-century life into a six- or nine-month intensive shamatha retreat with the expectation that one could sustain 10- to 12-hour days of meditation right from the first few weeks onwards for six months and, just like that, achieve shamatha and then return to one’s previous life and relationships!
Given the unprecedented stress and ubiquitous wounds of the digital and technological age in which each of us grew up, it is simply not realistic to think we can start retreat with the ideal schedule of a full-on “shamatha retreat” aimed to achieve unwavering stability within six or nine months.
From the beginning of 2024, inspired by detailed shamatha teachings given by Drupön Lama Karma, Lama Alan began formulating the concept of a level-one, level-two, and level-three retreat.
A level-one retreat is structured in such a way that someone transitioning from a socially engaged way of life can come to take joy in practicing Dharma all day long in solitude: gently removed from the sensory stimulation of modern life, one thoroughly immerses oneself in a balanced array of practices to open the heart and mind, settle the attention, and calibrate one’s body and mind to a relaxed and joyful way of being in retreat. One might still be listening to recorded teachings each day, taking long walks, and including mantra or other sacred recitations in one’s practice, while still maintaining overall silence as a way of life in retreat. Sustained for a few months, such a schedule will introduce individuals gently to the experience of being in retreat, while still creating the conditions for meaningful transformation and sometimes life-changing insights to occur.
A level-two retreat builds on some weeks or months of such balanced experience and begins to streamline conceptual practices, placing a progressively greater emphasis on silent, nonconceptual shamatha meditation, with less time spent reading instructional books or listening to teachings. How long one spends in this type of retreat will vary from one person to another, but the 6 to 8 hours that one typically spends practicing shamatha each day within such a level-two retreat will be enough to catalyze both pleasant and unpleasant meditative experiences and upheavals, so that one begins to learn how to handle and progress through such experiences wisely and fearlessly.
By the time one is ready for a level-three retreat, one is now so thoroughly flourishing in one’s overall practice that one might feel one is already coming around the home stretch toward sublime balance of body and mind, both in meditation and between sessions. This is the time to begin a six- or nine-month period in which all the outer and inner conditions are in place to meditate 12 to 14 hours a day, every day, continuously.
But again, if one starts this type of schedule too soon, one will get too tight, push too hard, and eventually burn out. One might even keep going at such a pace for a while, but without sufficient preparation in comprehending and embodying the depths and breadths of the entire spiritual Path—within which shamatha is only one practice along the way—one might become bored with a hollowed-out version of the practice. If such a stagnating meditation practice has at some level lost its tenderness of heart and profound inspiration, one might begin to find it pointless in the face of the magnitude of the problems in our world, and eventually give up. So, sufficient preparation for a level-three shamatha retreat is indispensable, to say the least!
Lama Alan has developed this flexible structure of outlining different levels of retreat not as a grading system, but as a reasonable and user-friendly way to help people who have lived in our contemporary age to so thoroughly adjust to what it means to be in retreat that over time it no longer feels like something drastic or intense.
The most important first step is to find contentment with being in retreat—being alone with one’s mind and body, free of major hedonic stimuli, without needing to rely upon conversation or social engagement to keep one inspired. This itself is not always easy, but we rejoice in the many retreatants in whom we have seen this transition take place over the first few months in retreat. That is the first step on a path to true flourishing.
Never Lose Heart—And Don’t Think Small
At the CCR, we see ourselves as pioneers, as explorers. So, learning from our collective experience and, with hindsight, our mistakes, is part of the process. We are taking unprecedented steps in the creation of a contemplative culture in the West. But that means we don’t have ready-made roadmaps for everything we are doing. The breadths and depths of our compassionate motivation are something in which we can be confident, and we also continuously recognize that none of us is infallible. We are a work in progress and cannot simply follow in the tracks of others—even within the Tibetan Buddhist tradition—for we are facing unprecedented situations in the twenty-first century.
We know that we still have much to learn in helping retreatants navigate the effects of previous complex trauma and grief that emerge while in retreat, especially as these manifest deeply within the body and its subtle energy systems.
We know that life in retreat takes an enormous amount of dedication and that it is not for everyone. We also recognize—now that we have been in existence as a working CCR hermitage for our first five years—that incoming retreatants have a much better idea of what to expect and what not to expect from long-term retreat.
They know that it will not be easy, and that no one should get their hopes up for achieving shamatha within six to nine months, if that is counted from the beginning of entering a life of retreat in this day and age. Current retreatants understand that they will not be having regular in-person interviews with resident spiritual teachers, especially when those spiritual teachers are also immersed in full-time retreat themselves.
Incoming retreatants can trust that our marvelous caretaking team will be there to attend to their immediate needs and medical emergencies, and that our global team of psychologists will be available for both interim and sustained help if needed. And retreatants are aware that sometimes such enormous obstacles arise in the course of full-time practice—and life—that it might become necessary to leave retreat, whether to seek ongoing medical or professional assistance for a chronic personal issue, to care for a sick family member, to return to a committed relationship, and so on.
I wish to express my personal gratitude to our spectacular team of staff and volunteers, who have step-by-step streamlined systems that we had to put in place so swiftly and often in ad hoc ways within the first two years of retreat here at Miyo Samten Ling. Our hermitage caretaking system is so smooth now—thanks especially to Virginia Craft, Aaron Taylor, and Jon Mitchell—and this brings much reassurance to my own heart.
For readers who wish to understand more about the traditional relationship with the spiritual teacher, and how one can become closer to that mentor precisely through practicing what he or she has taught, I would encourage you to listen to the recent (August 2025) talk that I offered at our hermitage, “Calling the Guru from Afar,” which is available through the Seeds of Wisdom Library. It is crucial to understand that within our particular model of long-term retreat and hermitage life, one should not enter with any expectation of becoming close to the spiritual teacher through frequent conversations or personal interaction. Rather, in our model, oral instruction is offered primarily to our community as a group, and personal guidance from Lama Alan is done primarily through written correspondence. And the deepest form of relationship with the ultimate spiritual teacher occurs through practice itself, as the many great contemplative traditions of the world have taught. This was highlighted recently by Fr. Eric Haarer in his exquisite talk on “Forgotten Gems of Christian Mysticism.”
We are also delighted to announce the publication of two new books that will serve as textbooks, as it were, for our Center for Contemplative Research. These are Śamatha and Vipaśyanā: An Anthology of Pith Instructions, composed and translated by B. Alan Wallace and myself, and The Vital Essence of Dzogchen: A Commentary on Düdjom Rinpoché’s Advice for a Mountain Retreat, by B. Alan Wallace.
A natural prelude to the latter book was published last year, under the title of Dzokchen: A Commentary on Düdjom Rinpoché’s Illumination of Primordial Wisdom. The root texts and pith instructions contained in these three books are designed precisely for the kind of retreats taking place at the CCR, and readers can learn much about what we practice—at its depths—by studying these books and also the linked oral commentaries included in Śamatha and Vipaśyanā.
Careful readers will glimpse the variety of approaches to the practices of shamatha and vipashyana that appear across different lineages of Buddhist teaching, all of which have been validated through centuries of contemplative experience. The modern commentaries included in these books are intended to help readers navigate these apparent differences, and eventually to reach a sophisticated understanding that can be tested in one’s own dedicated practice.
For all the difficulties that long-term meditation retreat can entail, the vision of a contemplative path to irreversible transformation and the compassionate intentions that inspire such sustained practice eventually make the difficulties pale in comparison. But one needs to understand the nature of reality at subtler and subtler levels to actually see why such practice is so worthwhile from hour to hour, day to day.
If you feel drawn by such a challenging path, we invite you to read more about short- and long-term retreats at the CCR here. While all our cabins are currently booked for most of 2026, and long-term applications for retreats beginning in 2027 are already being considered, we always welcome new applications. There are many conditions that need to come together for a retreat to take place successfully, and the longer in advance one can prepare, the smoother and more meaningful the retreat can be.
Long-term retreatant Benjamin shares the turbulence, lows, and highs over nearly a year in retreat, and reflects on how training the mind can truly benefit of all beings.
Note: This article is excerpted from a longer thank-you letter that Benjamin sent to his close friends, family, and benefactors. He has allowed us to share portions of the piece in gratitude for the support of the greater CCR community. If you’d like to support retreatants like Benjamin directly, consider donating to our Retreatant Support Fund.
Dear Friends,
As I somewhat expected before entering Miyo Samten Ling hermitage, it is indeed difficult to find words to describe what long-term retreat is like and what it does to the soul. In the West we tend to psychologize everything, which hinders the reader’s ability to actually get a taste of what the storyteller wants to express. With these words, I do my best to welcome you to a delicate telling and listening.
Retreat is a bit like being in an airplane with the windows closed. Though changes can be felt here and there along the way, one has little ability to tell just how high and far one has traveled. But there are moments of sensed depth and breadth, both pleasant and disturbing, that give me a hint: “I ain’t in Kansas anymore.”
Turbulence at Takeoff
After a surprisingly painful first few weeks, I started to settle in. Letting go of what is familiar and the warmth of beloved people in daily life felt like a small death. The high, dry desert environment and my settling adrenals kicked my ass. But after a while, I started to feel at home in my retreat cabin, with my body acclimated and my mind settled enough to appreciate long stretches of silence and solitude. Being alone for so long brings me closer to my basic needs—that is, our basic vulnerabilities, ever hinting at the fragility of life. I cherish ever more simple acts of generosity. Enjoying life can be so simple.
My abode is isolated by sight from the others that are scattered about the landscape that surrounds the beautiful, homey community center and chapel where one comes to catch internet reception, pick up parcels, or come together for a common practice once every several weeks. Deer pass by my windows every other day, and the sound of coyotes frequents the night.
I’ve done retreats alone, shorter of course, and I can say it really makes a difference being amid other committed practitioners, some of whom have been here for years. Though we rarely see each other, there is a silent intimacy among us. Though I’m still crawling in my diapers, my daily practice continues to develop and deepen, like a slowly growing garden. The ancient Sanskrit word for meditation/contemplation is bhavana, which means “cultivation.” At the moment, I “cultivate” in formal practice around eight hours a day, and that’s gradually growing. Ambition, pushing, and overthinking don’t work, so it’s a delicate and often difficult task to listen very closely. The time in between sessions also has its special qualities and particular demands. The tenderness and insights that arise now and again remind me that I’m not on an efficient assembly line, but a lively river. So, I can say that on some days, I am in full-time practice from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to bed.
So, what is it that I am actually doing every day?
Settling the Mind in its Natural State
I’ve put myself into a ten-month shamatha retreat, which means the vast majority of my time in formal practice and the intermediate moments are devoted to the cultivation of shamatha, with one to two hours a day of auxiliary practices.
Shamatha is a Sanskrit word (zhiné in Tibetan) meaning quiescence, stillness, calm abiding. It refers to a specific set of practices that develop attentional intelligence. It’s about intentionally developing the ability to maintain a continuous stream of cognizant, focused, relaxed, and vividly aware attention to dissolve the mind’s rampant flip-flopping between dullness and disturbing excitation. In Buddhist training, shamatha is an indispensable foundation for more advanced practices.
One can cultivate a regular shamatha practice with 20–60 minute sessions once or twice a day, as I have on and off over the past twenty years. These types of meditation have been demonstrated to increase mental and physical health, which I can attest to personally. However, with sustained long-term training, shamatha practice takes on a whole new dimension. Essentially, one is settling the mind into its natural ground state, free of coarse and subtle disturbances, idle chatter, and obsessive ideation. It has been confirmed again and again by professional contemplatives over thousands of years: the natural ground state of the individual mind is 1) blissful, 2) luminous, and 3) peacefully non-conceptual. These three salient qualities of the distilled individual mind, along with an unprecedented sense of well-being that emerges, are inseparable from such a refined and developed attention.
But boy oh boy, it ain’t an easy path. All sorts of things can occur along the way—the good, the blissful, the bad, and the real ugly. As one relaxes the body and mind deeper and deeper in long-term practice, the mind dishes out all sorts of things as it purges and heals itself. This phenomenon is referred to as “meditative experiences” (nyam in Tibetan), which can be both pleasant and unpleasant. Like dredging a swamp, as one digs ever so gently but discerningly deeper into the mind, one may come across wonderful treasures: moments of joy, unprecedented clarity, an impenetrable sense of lightness, or perhaps spikes or long arcs of bliss. On the other hand, one may hit sleeping dragons that don’t like being woken up: unpleasant memories, old repressed material, energetic blockages, strange pains in the body, debilitating low self-esteem and confusion, deep-rooted traumas, and all the stuff we shamefully hide from the world. Whatever comes up, the guideline is: don’t take it too seriously, don’t reify, don’t get attached, don’t appropriate—just let it all arise and pass.
Easier said than done. Meditative experiences manifest uniquely to each individual, as we each have our own mental-physical matrices that unravel their blockages in unique ways, and there is no predicting what will come and hit you from the side. In order to discern how best to deal with these experiences, it’s essential to have seasoned practitioners close by, as well as mentors who have traversed their own wonderful and treacherous inner landscapes enough that they can help others navigate their own—as I so fortunately do here.
At the onset of this retreat, my mind’s chatter went wild. It felt like meditation was making my mind more chaotic, not less. Apparently this happens to pretty much everyone who starts to engage in long-term practice. It’s not that my mind was getting more disturbed than normal, but rather I was peeling back the surface layer of my awareness and dipping into the undercurrents that were already there and are always moving below my ordinary state of mind. No way can my mind be this chaotic! A humbling experience to say the least.
All sorts of strange and interesting characters suddenly appear and pass through the space of the mind. It sometimes seems as if they are not part of me at all. Some guests show up frequently over days or even weeks, as if one were watching a television program that one cannot simply turn off. Some examples from my first months included: imagining what possessions I need to downsize in a year in order to pack before I leave Colorado, endless arguments with a particular person, and Thor, the god of thunder. I know that it doesn’t really matter what the content of the thoughts are. If I’m in a state prone to appropriating the movements and contents the mind produces, then pretty much anything will be appropriated. If I am not able to abide in discerning awareness, thoughts, emotions and stories will kidnap and take me for a ride again and again and again and again.
It is indeed possible to rest in the stillness of awareness—something that is always present with us, having the two qualities of luminosity and cognizance—and still have a flood of thoughts occurring in the space of the mind. It’s fascinating to rest in the stillness of awareness in the midst of so much inner movement, where a sense of peace doesn’t entail the mind being devoid of thoughts, and where there is a spaciousness that allows for more patience and humor.
These are the non-threatening kinds of movements of the mind. I’m sure we all know the hellish states of mind that can abduct and torture us, even when not engaging in long-term practice. I’m told that in retreat, one is to treat those states with just as much impartiality as the extremely enjoyable ones. Again, not easy. We need to have great compassion for ourselves.
The Reality of Death
Every morning, whether or not the sun has yet arisen, I contemplate the reality of impermanence and death. What does that look like? To start, I remind myself of the ever-changing nature of life.
One object of meditation I’ve frequented lately is my thinning hairline. Is the filter of my shower drainage supposed to be cleaned out that many times a week? Or is it just my long beard contributing to the blockage? I’m definitely not young anymore, and indeed there are other parts of my body that perk up uncomfortably to remind me that my time to leave this life is always sooner than I think. As the Tibetan saying goes, “Old age is not guaranteed, but your next life is!”
Contemplating my own death repeatedly proves itself to be a powerful way to be returned to my priorities. It boils down to one question: Given my definite demise, what am I going to do with this unique and precious day? There is no guarantee I will see this day to its end, no promise that I will lay this body back down in bed the same way it arose this morning. I believe that when I finally do face death, what will truly help me is the clarity of my conscience and the quality of my awareness. These are not things that I can cultivate in a short time span, but are a result of the positive momentum I add to every day of my life. What shall I do to meet death without fear and regret? Will I be surprised and feel that I’ve been cheated by life, or is there some way to approach that transition with positive anticipation? Perhaps, I hope, I will settle down with a sense of peace, even celebration, knowing that I treated others well and worked every day to uproot my very own mental afflictions—afflictions that cause pain to myself, other human beings, and animals, not to mention the environment I inhabit.
In order to be touched as I am, to make genuine change in my priorities and attitudes, I need to let the reality of death and impermanence actually be real for me. I can meet that reality through genuine insight, because death is always happening, and for such insight, that takes tending. One of my long-held practices is one where when I say goodbye to someone, especially when it will be for more than a couple of weeks, I take in all detail possible of that moment, like taking a mental photograph with all my senses, and secretly bow to the possibility that this might be the last time I see this person alive. This not only brings me closer to the reality of death, but also to the delicateness and preciousness of life and my relations.
Humor
“God and I have become like two giant fat people living in a tiny boat. We keep bumping into each other and laughing.”
This is my favorite poem of the great Persian Sufi poet and mystic Hafiz.
How do I know when I am bumping up against something sacred? Sometimes in the middle of a meditation session I burst into laughter. The slightest something breaks the rigid symmetry of my serious attitudes and there I am, cracking up all on my own in my meditation box. Tears also come regularly, spontaneously, secretly showing the world the gratitude I have for my life, for all the kindness I’ve received. One could dryly say that these are only moments of catharsis, just the nervous system letting off some pressure. I don’t think so.
Sometimes I am rubbing up against something holy and don’t regard it as such. All I feel is agitation and impatience, as if I’m being dragged, unable to find any satisfying reason why I’m so frustrated. This may go on for hours, even days. Then something suddenly becomes clear—like finally getting the message, whether through a harsh truth or gentle advice—and I see that I was indeed so close to something important to me: an insight, a moment with the divine, a reconciliation waiting to happen, a recognition of something primordially pure—but because of my own limiting conceptions and addiction to my beliefs, I buffered myself from them. In hindsight, I see it was just fat old God bumping into me, and I was refusing to laugh.
Now, coming to motivation: what’s the point of it all? Why am I in this retreat? Why bother with all the hardship and spending so much time and effort cultivating the mind to this extent?
What is the Point? Compassion
I quote my beloved Jewish World War II heroine, Etty Hillesum, who speaks it all for me (these are two quotes put together):
“It is the only thing we can do. Each of us must turn inward and destroy in himself all that he thinks he ought to destroy in others. And remember that every atom of hate that we add to this world makes it still more inhospitable.”
“Ultimately, we have just one moral duty: to reclaim large areas of peace in ourselves, more and more peace, and to reflect it towards others. And the more peace there is in us, the more peace there will be in our troubled world.”
It’s been well warned for thousands of years in India and Tibet that it’s awfully dangerous to get caught up in one’s experience of the natural sense of well-being, power, and peace that arise due to sustained meditative practices like shamatha. There is the danger of isolating oneself in an enjoyable bubble, far from the harsh realities of the wider world. But no one is an island, and I believe the great practitioners of old Asia, like all great contemplatives, knew this better than most.
The point is to gain insight, to know how things really work. Shamatha makes the mind serviceable, refining the attention and senses so we can actually perceive and know definitively what is happening in reality at whatever level. And reality, ultimately, is said to be one of profound interconnectedness. It’s one thing to have intellectual understanding of how intricately intertwined our lives and sources of well-being are, and much virtue derives from that deep, conceptual insight. But já é outra loiça (it’s a whole other dish) to have direct, unmediated experience of reality firsthand, beyond any addictive ideation and even our psychological matrix. And that experience, as has been told, gives rise to spontaneous, undeniable, heartfelt compassion for all life. It’s said that it’s as if each person becomes your only dear child. Can you imagine that?
Besides death, I contemplate compassion every day. Until I reach that state of spontaneously arisen love and compassion that undoubtedly leads to meaningful action, I will do what I can to cultivate my mind and heart to be able to, as much as I authentically can in each moment, hold all of life’s complexities and the mess we humans have gotten this planet and ourselves in. To again quote my dear Etty Hillesum: “We should be willing to act as a balm for all wounds.”
I’m in this shamatha retreat to train my attention and love in order to offer relevant help to individuals and our larger situations. I often remind myself that the word “attention” is related closely to the word “tend,” the same word we use when we take care of the injured and sick. I won’t hold back from acting just because I don’t have ultimate wisdom, nor will I stay in a cave seeking isolated perfection for eternity, but I am seeking a meaningful, dynamic balance between these two activities. After all, it is within us and among people—including animals and all forms of life—where the word “wisdom” even begins to have any relevant meaning. And in our troubled times, we desperately need wisdom.
When I am in need of inspiration to cultivate the two wings of wisdom and compassion, I need look no further than His Holiness the Dalai Lama. This is a person who lost his country, who has witnessed the decimation of thousands of years of Tibetan cultural heritage, the destruction of thousands of monasteries and sacred places, his people imprisoned in work camps, dehumanized, starved, tortured, with many killed publicly or gone missing. When asked how he can remain so happy and engaged despite all that has happened, and is still happening, with very little hope on the horizon for Tibet and its people, he answered with one word: wisdom. He has never shown hatred or sworn revenge on the Chinese people or politics, despite his unending resolve and absolute stance for independence and fairness for his country. In fact, he has only shown great kindness and compassion to the Chinese, as if he too were their patron.
Landing in Gratitude
It was a conversation with some friends who are parents that encouraged me to go deeper into this kind of training. Each told me that when they were in their teens or twenties, they clearly knew that being a parent was their path. For many years I thought I was broken, as if my parent-gene was lagging sluggishly behind, even though being an educator of youngsters called me early on in life. By witnessing my friends’ enthusiasm and certainty of that wish, I recognized that I too had that kind of enthusiasm and certainty when I was younger, but it wasn’t for becoming a biological father. Rather, I had a primal urge for deep and sustained spiritual (though I don’t like to use that word so often) training.
As a young man, sex and parties were interesting, but only to a certain extent (though much later on women became an essential part of my path for learning unconditional love and the sacred). From University parties I often left early and alone, to wander home drunk with a sense of yearning, concerned for the depressed people I drank with, and looking at the stars and contemplating the sacred. Ha! But alas, there was no room for that contemplation in my wider culture, nor in the future of any career—no role models of professional contemplatives as the many ancient cultures had, no context for those who feel the call to go into solitude to gain wisdom and share it with the commons where it belongs. So instead, I continued to study Physics. I tried to get some insight into reality through that brilliant but limiting discipline before stumbling forward into young adult life, trying to seek a meaningful path. I am so grateful to have found the work and teachings of Dr. B. Alan Wallace and Dr. Eva Natanya, who have given voice to this calling I’ve felt since childhood, and the space they’ve created for us to truly fathom the mind for the benefit of all beings.
From the depths of my heart I thank not only my close friends and family, but for everyone who has contributed to the Retreatant Support Fund or otherwise supported me, making this retreat possible. I couldn’t be here without your generosity and care. Making lots of money has never been my forte, but fortunately making friends with virtuous and kind people has! I hope I can one day return your kindness.
With sincere gratitude,
Benjamin
January 2025
“We can make our minds so like still water that beings gather about us that they may see, it may be, their own images, and so live for a moment with a clearer, perhaps even with a fiercer life because of our quiet.”
~William Butler Yeats, The Celtic Twilight
Griffin Cunningham shares how volunteers came together to create the CCR's newest educational offering.
Dear CCR community,
Last month we launched Seeds of Wisdom—the CCR’s new monthly giving option that gives back to you. The growing Seeds of Wisdom Library includes archival courses (see an excerpt here), as well as new, in-depth guidance from Drs. B. Alan Wallace and Eva Natanya. The Library, whose resources are designed to help people take meaningful steps toward a new era of human flourishing, is an educational offering that we are delighted to share with all who are interested in deepening their learning in contemplative science and practice.
Today, I want to pull the curtain back and share a little more with you about how Seeds of Wisdom came together, as well as some of our favorite parts of this membership. And keep reading for a special preview of a recent addition to the library!
A Team Effort
Without the work of many generous volunteers, Seeds of Wisdom truly would not have become a reality. One of those volunteers is Daniel, whose professional background is in music recording and mix engineering. In addition to revamping our in-house audio system at Miyo Samten Ling, Daniel also restored the audio for over fifty hours of lectures from the late 1990s and early 2000s. Anything you listen to through Seeds of Wisdom has passed through his skilled hands.
Daniel says he was happy to lend his expertise: “Seeds of Wisdom is a wonderful project because Lama Alan has many facets, and this is presenting them to people who might not have been exposed to him in the past.”
Daniel continued, “He was dressed as a professor back at my first retreat with him, and that was exactly what I needed at the time. Some of these older lectures and retreats have a very special nuance, allowing us to approach the Dharma from several angles, all of which are appropriate for different people. I think it’s wonderful that all this material is being made available, both because of the different audiences for which it was intended, and because it provides another way to connect more deeply with Dr. Wallace, the Dharma, and modern science.”
CCR volunteer Andrei—a software engineer by trade—also played an essential role in developing our backend user management system. He said he enjoyed thinking through the system architecture, and the best way to leverage the CCR’s existing digital tools. At the end of our conversation, Andrei remarked: “I’m very excited to continue helping the CCR and keep making awesome things, and I’m grateful to Dr. Wallace for making all of these resources public.”
Daniel and Andrei certainly weren’t our only volunteers, so we’d like to take this moment to give another heartfelt thank-you to all the contributors who helped make Seeds of Wisdom a reality. We could not have done this without you!
Humbling Work (and a Special Preview!)
Along with another volunteer, I had the daunting but joyful duty of auditing some of Dr. Wallace’s archival courses, including two that he taught at the University of California, Santa Barbara in 1999/2000. As I listened through Science, Religion, and the Problem of Consciousness and Sleeping, Dreaming, and Dying in Tibetan Buddhism, I was at many times overwhelmed with gratitude—for Dr. Wallace, for the Dharma, for science, and for technology. Despite my being only three or four years old when these courses were originally taught, so many factors came together that enabled me to listen to these truly life-changing lectures (and during the work day, no less!). I hope you experience that same sense of wonder when you get the chance to explore these courses.
If you’ve made it onto the CCR email list, you’ve likely encountered some of Dr. Wallace’s free lectures on YouTube and elsewhere. But if you made it to the end of this article, you also probably get the sense that there’s something different about the offerings we’re sharing on Seeds of Wisdom.
So in that vein, I wanted to share another preview from the library with you—one that really captures that special essence of what we’re offering. Please accept it as a token of gratitude for being with us on this mission to Fathom the Mind. Heal the World.(R) We sincerely hope you enjoy and benefit from it.
Watch: “How the Stream Purifies Itself” (13:35)
Wishing you well,
Griffin Cunningham
Development & Operations Manager
Center for Contemplative Research
P.S. Don’t forget that Seeds of Wisdom is free for all monastics and those in long-term retreat! We also have discounted rates available for those whose financial circumstances make it difficult to give the suggested donation. Click here to apply for discounted or free access.
Aaron Taylor shares the joys and challenges of maintaining Miyo Samten Ling Hermitage, and why a new truck is a necessity for our work.
Dear CCR Community,
It is a privilege and honor to offer my service at CCR. It is quite stunning to think of all the conditions that have ripened for me to be engaged in such meaningful work, adding my little drop of effort to the great vision of our teachers and community. I’m writing today to share about what it’s like to be the Caretaker and Property Manager at the CCR in Colorado, and to describe a recent challenge (a broken truck!) that you can help with.
As I write these words, I am sitting in the office just adjacent to Manjushri Chapel, watching a spring storm drop much needed moisture on our hermitage lands and the greater San Luis Valley. This storm is a relief considering the dry winter we just experienced (I only plowed snow once this past winter), and the potential of wildfires is a constant companion in my awareness. I consider what time I may be able to invest in much-needed fire mitigation while placing pots and pans below leaks that have revealed themselves at Maitri House (our community building) over the past day. But don’t worry! I am smiling. These buildings have stood strong for decades, though not without revealing the deeper truth of coarse impermanence.
My work is a game of priorities rather than completion, and each project is an opportunity for mind training and the preliminary practices of Buddhism, that prepare our minds for deeper training. A group of Carmelite Catholic hermits built this place, leaving us a sublime hermitage and legacy of contemplative practice. We now have the honor of tending the fire of contemplative culture at Miyo Samten Ling to Fathom the Mind and Heal the World.
On our way back to the hermitage from the airport in Alamosa, a retreatant once asked me, “How do you do it all?” My answer was a simple truth: “I don’t!” I am a small cog in the larger drivetrain of the Center for Contemplative Research: a vast network of people working toward our meaningful and virtuous aspiration.
Our Trusty Truck Breaks Down: How You Can Help
People say that a picture is worth 1,000 words. I have written at least 1,000 words this morning and deleted them again and again. What to say about our precious tool, the white truck? It was an incredible gift that came with the property, and has been so kindly cared for by our dear Dharma brother and my close spiritual guide, John Bruna (who used to be a professional auto mechanic). In addition to leading many of our Ghatika Monthly sessions, John has been volunteering his time to provide regular maintenance and upkeep on the fleet of vehicles that are our lifeline here at the hermitage.
Father Eric Haarer, the former director of Nada Hermitage, used to joke that the truck only had one problem: “It always starts!” But unfortunately, that’s no longer true. A few weeks ago, while I was driving the Hermitage roads, the truck had an oil line break, dumping all of the engine oil out in a matter of seconds. With the motor fully seized, the truck came to a final rest right outside of Cabin 1 (Kailash).
So one “problem” is replaced by another: how can we get a new truck, and quickly?
Shingles and sheathing are piling up outside of Tidro Cave (a cabin under gradual renovation), mounds of rabbit brush are ready to be driven to the Crestone burn pile, recycling is building up at Maitri House, and another winter of plowing the hermitage roads is only a Summer and Autumn away. A truck at the Hermitage is not just convenient—it is an absolute necessity. In addition to all of these duties, Courtney and I have aspirations to host four volunteer work weekends this Summer to remove rabbit brush and other fire fuels around our buildings in preparation for the upcoming wildfire season, but none of this vital work can happen until we have a truck to transport the vegetation off site. “Ruby the Suby,” our little 1998 Subaru, is filling in as best she can. But being of similar vintage as the white truck, is being pushed beyond her design.
So, I will end this note to y’all with a request: please consider donating to our General Fund today to help us acquire a new truck. In doing so, you ensure Miyo Samten Ling Hermitage continues to be a safe and serene environment for all of our dedicated practitioners.
It has been an honor to share a bit of what my day-to-day work is like here at the CCR.
With love and gratitude,
Aaron Taylor
What is the Sixfold Matrix? Where did it come from? And how can it help our world?
Today, we’re beginning an article series explaining the Sixfold Matrix of Mental Balance, a seminal framework for our work that you may have encountered in previous talks or materials shared by the CCR. The Sixfold Matrix paradigm guides and overlays many of the CCR’s program activities, and enables us to concretely follow through on our mission to offer the world accessible tools for cultivating genuine well-being. The Sixfold Matrix informs each of our domains (Mind Labs, Research, and Education), and now, we’re sharing more about this powerful framework with the broader world in detail.
We invite you to explore this high-level overview of the Sixfold Matrix: what it is, where it came from, and perhaps most importantly, the benefit it is designed to provide not only to you, but to the entire world.
What is the Sixfold Matrix of Mental Balance?
Put simply, the Sixfold Matrix is the CCR’s response to what some are now calling the “metacrisis”: the complex combination of modern crises that threaten the future of human civilization (including climate change, declining mental health, the collapse of collaboration across differences, wars, and pandemic disease, among others).
We at the CCR propose that the root causes of the metacrisis lie within the human mind. It follows that when we address these root causes, we unleash the capacity to shield humanity from the various catastrophes that could unfold as a result of the metacrisis.
But with great confidence in the remarkable human ability to learn and change, we aspire to more than just disaster mitigation. We suggest that if a critical mass of people are equipped with the tools of the type offered through the Sixfold Matrix, the human race can build toward and ultimately experience a new era of unprecedented flourishing. The CCR’s founder, Dr. B. Alan Wallace, posits that this flourishing happens through prioritizing the cultivation of genuine well-being (sometimes referred to as eudaimonia), over the pursuit of mundane pleasure (hedonia) that derives from fleeting, sensory satisfaction.
Genuine Well-Being:
“A stimulus-independent sense of psychological flourishing that emerges directly from the cultivation of virtuous mental processes and impulses” (Wallace, 2005).1 It is a quality of well-being that comes not from what we get from the world (as in hedonia) but rather what we bring to the world (Wallace, 2019).2
The Sixfold Matrix is specifically designed to cultivate this experience of genuine well-being at the individual, communal, and global scale. It draws from a combination of established guidance from the great wisdom traditions of the world and contemporary input from important work in psychology, neuroscience, physics, philosophy, and beyond. The Sixfold Matrix is composed of six components of mental balance that, though developed individually, are profoundly intertwined. They offer a theory whose explanatory power can potentially encompass the full spectrum of human experience, with its various modes of balance and imbalance, and the six types of intelligence call for specific practices that augment flourishing across all components.
The six components of the Sixfold Matrix of Mental Balance are:
- Conative Intelligence: The discernment and cultivation of desires and intentions that support one’s own and others’ genuine well-being. With conative intelligence, we grow in our ability to develop wise motivations, goals, and priorities, aligning our personal values and sense of purpose with what is conducive to the flourishing of all beings.
- Ethical Intelligence: The ability to apply principles of inner regulation and balance to one’s physical, verbal, and mental conduct in everyday life. Ethical conduct nurtures genuine well-being in oneself and others, and unethical behavior undermines it. When we begin to prioritize the well-being of others, we discover an even deeper sense of genuine well-being, joy, and fortitude within ourselves.
- Attentional Intelligence: The ability to hold relaxed, stable, and vivid attention on a chosen object for an extended period of time. This kind of mental training is an important and direct path supporting cultivation of genuine well-being from within. It relies on mindfulness and introspection, and ultimately facilitates states of bliss and clarity that can help deepen balance across the other Sixfold Matrix components.
- Cognitive Intelligence: Cultivation of the comprehension of reality as it is. This arises from a progressively more discerning faculty that can perceive things as they appear and then as they are, without turning a blind eye to empirical evidence and without confusing our own projections with reality. This kind of inquiry enables examination and understanding of body, mind, feelings, and phenomena and ultimately offers a pathway to examine and eliminate the confounding delusions that often pervade our minds.
- Emotional Intelligence: Awareness regarding one’s emotional states and the ability to regulate emotional responses in ways that are appropriate and beneficial across myriad situations. Practices that cultivate emotional intelligence open the heart to its natural predisposition for caring, and expand our circle of heartfelt empathy ever wider to eventually encompass all sentient beings.
- Spiritual Intelligence: The cultivation of intentional and continual exploration of the innermost depths of who we are and how we relate to the rest of reality, relying upon contemplative practices for exploring one’s own true identity and the true sources of well-being, wisdom, and ultimate healing from mental afflictions. This includes the uncovering of deeper resources of knowing, consciousness, or timeless wisdom that transcend human cognition but can manifest in experience, not “separate” from our moment-to-moment awareness of everyday life.
Where did the Sixfold Matrix come from?
The Sixfold Matrix was developed by Dr. B. Alan Wallace over the course of decades of academic and contemplative training, and has been informed by his work and study in the fields of comparative religion, psychology, physics, and Tibetan Buddhist philosophy and meditation. The Sixfold Matrix is unique in that it combines the wisdom of both Western science and the world’s contemplative traditions, but it is far from a new or “new-age” religion or discipline. Rather, it is a well-researched, secular framework designed to offer techniques toward health and healing among religious and secular worldviews alike.
Just as other frameworks have historically proven useful for applying and testing wisdom and scientific discovery in a given era (e.g. Aristotle’s system of biological classification of species, which became an impactful foundation for later scientific work), so the Sixfold Matrix can helpfully frame the way we approach both individual and collective well-being in the twenty-first century, in the context of the knowledge and tools familiar in our time.
The Sixfold Matrix in Action
If we imagine the Sixfold Matrix as a nest—supporting our sense of genuine well-being from all sides—we can see how each component weaves into the other in even the mundane circumstances of our everyday lives. By cultivating aspects of the Sixfold Matrix in meditation, reflection, and day-to-day activities, every moment becomes an opportunity to experience genuine well-being. Our small yet wholesome interactions with others and our surrounding environment make a meaningful impact, bit by bit.
But the benefits of the Sixfold Matrix do not end with the individual. On the contrary, the Sixfold Matrix can bring reality-based flourishing to local communities, nations, and global systems alike. We term this flourishing “reality-based” because it arises from a realistic understanding of what promotes genuine well-being amid the complex causes and conditions at the root of our mental perceptions, our behaviors, and our interactions with our world.
In particular, we believe the Sixfold Matrix can produce reality-based flourishing in three key areas:
- Social & Environmental Flourishing: When we act with ethical intelligence, our lives are characterized by nonviolence and benevolence, which, through individual and collective actions, results in harmony within families, communities, nations, and beyond. Ethical choices can enable there to be economies grounded in sustainable use of the planet’s resources, and support a harmonious balance between unity and diversity among people’s cultural, religious, ethnic, linguistic, racial, and gender identities.
- Psychological Flourishing: Through training in practices to achieve deep and sustainable balance, individuals can achieve a unification of body and mind (in a state called samadhi in the Buddhist and yogic traditions). Through such balance, an unprecedented number of people could find joy and contentment that arises from within, a wide-reaching remedy to maladies stemming from addiction, consumerism, alienation, and other stubborn challenges of our time.
- Spiritual Flourishing: The average human now has access to more recorded information than ever before. But intellectual knowledge is not the same as existential wisdom—the world’s contemplative traditions attest to this. Through sustained and rigorous contemplative inquiry into the nature of reality, in a social climate in which wisdom is valued, people from all backgrounds may arrive at the same supreme level of well-being that comes from knowing reality as it is.
What’s Next?
The Sixfold Matrix is not a “quick fix” to the metacrisis. Its adoption among individuals and communities must happen gradually, and in collaboration with other disciplines, organizations, and frameworks. Still, time is of the essence, which is why the CCR is actively working on projects that will bring the Sixfold Matrix to a variety of venues. In our Education domain, the CCR is developing curricula for middle school students (already piloted at The Crestone Charter School) and undergraduate university settings, as well as an inaugural Sixfold Matrix teacher training among a cohort of potential teachers who will contribute to curriculum development and teach the curriculum more broadly in coming years. Ongoing Research at our center in Crestone explores aspects of contemplative practice that are relevant to better understanding and application of the principles and approaches underpinning the Sixfold Matrix. And from the very beginning, we’ve provided the conditions for contemplatives-in-training to flourish through our Mind Labs. In plumbing the very depths of their own conscious experience, we hope our rigorously trained practitioners of contemplative science will over time produce more insights into the components of the Sixfold Matrix as relevant to our modern world.
If you’re interested in taking a deep-dive into the Sixfold Matrix, you can watch Dr. Wallace’s recent keynote speech at the 2024 Tzu Chi Global Symposium for Common Goodness: Buddhism and Science, or his seven-part talk series on YouTube. What better time to practice them than the present?
1Wallace, B. A. (2005). Genuine Happiness: Meditation as the Path to Fulfillment. John Wiley & Sons.
2Wallace, B. A. (2019). Four kinds of intelligence for optimal mental health and balance (1 of 8). The Meridian Trust.
Development & Operations Manager Griffin Cunningham shares his contemplative journey, and invites you to do the same.
Dear CCR community,
Over the past few months, I’ve been honored to connect with so many of you through our Sustenance Campaign. I’m filled with inspiration as I recall the stories you’ve shared—stories of gain and loss, courage, dedication, and transformation. It’s clear that Dr. Wallace and Dr. Natanya’s teachings have supported so many of you, in a variety of ways, on your paths toward genuine well-being.
And still: for every one of you I’ve met, there are twenty more members of this community that I haven’t. So, as the newest member of the CCR team, I wanted to take this opportunity to share a bit of my own story with you, and tell you more about my role at the CCR.
My story starts with disillusionment.
Disillusionment
It was a few weeks before my junior year of college. The afternoon sun was hot, shining through my window as I read Paramahansa Yogananda’s Autobiography of a Yogi—my first real introduction to Eastern religion.
I laid the book on my chest. If true, the stories in this book would blow the lid off of my Catholic faith. For years, I had struggled to believe in the God described at Mass. My spiritual life was barren and directionless. But in the Autobiography, I read about yogis finding true peace in samadhi, over and over again. Their worldview and their practice had real results.
As I considered them, the benefits of meditation seemed to far outweigh my frustrating efforts to understand whether God was “real.” As far as I could tell, the latter task hadn’t made my life better. In fact, it had only increased my sense of guilt and anxiety.
From that moment, I decided to really explore the potentials of meditation. What was I missing out on? Could I really find peace within my own mind?
Refuge
As I dabbled in meditation and pushed the boundaries of my old beliefs, I put my refuge in “science”—at least, that’s what I told myself. I think I really meant logical thinking, which for me, was the polar opposite of blind belief. It wasn’t until I encountered Dr. Wallace that I realized these two—science and logical thinking—didn’t always sync up.
Despite my angst, Buddhism caught my attention. At first glance, it was the least “religious” religion I had ever encountered (in hindsight, this initial impression was of course reductionistic). Meditation was central, which I liked, and I found its philosophy both fresh and practical. I was hooked. Still aching for a coherent worldview, I applied for a Buddhist Studies program in Bodh Gaya, India.
The first weekend retreat broke me. It took a mere 48 hours of sitting with my own mind to realize that the Buddha’s teachings on suffering, arising, cessation, and path weren’t just compelling—they were true. In this experience, I got my first taste of refuge.
Soon after I got back from the program, I happened upon Dr. Wallace and Dr. Natanya’s work on YouTube. Their teachings spoke to me on both a practical and mystical level: I found my meditation practice vastly enriched by Dr. Wallace’s detailed instructions, and Dr. Natanya’s ability to interweave Christian and Buddhist teachings was astounding. In fact, I found her presentation of Christianity so inspiring that I decided to give Jesus and his teachings a wholehearted second try.
For the past five years, I’ve been on a journey of not only healing my relationship with Christianity, but diving into it with more intelligence and enthusiasm than ever before. And while it’s a bit ironic, the practices of shamatha and vipashyana as taught here at the CCR have been integral to my “coming home.” While my story continues to unfold, I know from experience that these practices have value far beyond their Buddhist origin.
My Role at the CCR
In 2022, I was very fortunate to attend the CCR’s inaugural Fathom the Mind. Heal the World. Retreat. It was truly one of the most profound and special weeks of my whole life. Transformed by my experiences there, I was determined to stay involved with the CCR however I could.
After two years of volunteering on various projects, I was honored to join the CCR full-time as Development & Operations Manager in the summer of 2024. While the title certainly covers a wide range of duties, at the core, I’m responsible for:
- Organizing and promoting events and other content, such as our Ghatika Monthly meditation sessions
- Spearheading new projects and initiatives, including an upcoming CCR podcast (more on this in the coming months…)
- Planning and executing fundraising campaigns like the Sustenance Campaign
- Deepening your connection with the CCR
Now let me linger on that last point. While most who have donated to the Sustenance Campaign have heard from me already, I want to reiterate my thanks for your generosity. Because of you, I can devote myself full-time to bringing the CCR’s message—and by extension, genuine well-being—to more and more people. I am so grateful for this opportunity, and I wouldn’t be able to help in advancing our mission without your support.
So, now that you know a little more about me, I’d love to hear from you. What’s your story, and how did you find us? What can we offer to help you on your journey toward genuine well-being? What are the impacts you want to see through the CCR? If you’re up for it, I’d love to discuss these questions and more with you. Send me a message at griffin.cunningham@centerforcontemplativeresearch.org—I look forward to getting to know you better.
Wishing you well,
Griffin Cunningham
Development & Operations Manager
Center for Contemplative Research
A CCR retreatant shares the benefits of her six-month retreat.
Dear CCR Community,
Earlier this year I completed my first six-month meditation retreat at the CCR hermitage Miyo Samten Ling in Crestone, and it is a great pleasure to share with you a little bit about myself and the profound experience that these intense months of retreat have been for me, hoping that this short testimony may be useful and inspiring for your practice.
Ever since I was a teenage girl I had been asking myself who we are, and where we come from, and then seeking answers to these questions by persistently searching my mind to discover dimensions of my past life. At that time I had never practiced meditation, and yet I instinctively knew that it was in the space of the mind, through introspection, that I could find the answers to those questions, but after a while my concentration would falter and I would get lost in that dark and empty space. And my search stopped—I couldn’t find the answers.
After working in advertising and media for almost thirty years, it was meeting Lama Alan Wallace that convinced me to leave my job and retire early to have the time to attend his eight-week meditation retreats. I was fortunate enough to be accepted into one of the first eight-week shamatha retreats in Phuket in 2011, and since then I have attended every eight-week retreat, either in person or online when it was not possible to attend in person. The teachings I received from Lama Alan, and the study of them along with contemplation and meditative practice, have been a source of profound inspiration and spiritual and personal growth. During these same years I had begun to volunteer in the nonprofit sector, co-founding a charity to support the establishment of a nunnery school in Nepal, which is still thriving.
I set aside several months each year for solitary meditation retreats. The months spent in solitude, contemplation, and meditation were an indelible experience, a source of profound insight and peace that I remember as moments of grace, priceless gifts, and blessings. Meditation on the Four Immeasurables allowed me to gain insight into the lack of boundaries between myself and others, and to generate great compassion for every aspect of the human condition. The teachings on dependent origination and meditation on the nature of mind, where the imaginary differences between me and others dissolved, left room for a feeling of loving-kindness and compassion. Listening to and contemplating Lama Alan’s commentaries on the texts of Dudjom Lingpa and other masters of the Dzogchen tradition was like the air I breathed, and I found in them the deepest answers to my spiritual quest.
This past year, the conditions were finally right for me to come to Crestone and do an intensive six-month meditation retreat without interruption.The months I spent in the peace and natural beauty of Miyo Samten Ling, immersed in meditation and the study of the Dharma teachings, surrounded by the loving presence and care of the other retreatants and teachers, were extremely beneficial and deeply meaningful. They were months of solitude, silence, spiritual growth, and deep joy. I never felt alone. The beauty of nature and the richness of the teachings I received were a constant nourishment for my deepest mind.
My time in Crestone flew by, and I had to return to Italy to attend to all that normal, everyday life throws at me. But in my heart remained the wonderful qualities I had cultivated in the six months of the retreat: a deep sense of gentleness, patience, calmness, and more clarity in dealing with every situation. These are qualities that enrich not only my life, but also the lives of the people I come into contact with and those who live around me.
Sometimes I am still amazed at how much my inner transformation affects others. When this happens—when I see the release of tension, worry, and suffering in others because of this process of spiritual transformation and healing of my mind—I feel great joy and wonder and the wish that all beings may be free from suffering and its causes spontaneously fills my heart.
My deepest gratitude goes to my root teacher Lama Alan who made this possible by guiding me on the Dharma path, for giving me the opportunity to come to the CCR in Crestone, and for offering me the opportunity to return to Miyo Samten Ling to continue my retreat.
My love and deep gratitude goes also to the teachers and community of Miyo Samten Ling for their affection, unwavering care, and support. May the aspirations of Lama Alan and the project of the CCRs flourish throughout the world and bring about a revolution in the science of mind to heal the world.
—Francesca
Dr. Nicholas J. Matiasz explains the CCR's unique, rigorous approach to contemplative science, featured in a new Routledge Handbook
Dear CCR Community,
As the CCR’s Scientific Program Director, I’m delighted to share an update with you today on an important contribution the CCR has made to the field of contemplative science. This past September, Routledge published its first Handbook of Research Methods in Spirituality and Contemplative Studies, for which Dr. B. Alan Wallace and I contributed a chapter. Today, I’m writing to share with you the key ideas of that chapter, which describes some of the core elements of the CCR’s approach to contemplative science.
A revolutionary mission with an orthodox foundation
While the CCR’s mission may seem unorthodox at first glance, our work is thoroughly grounded in principles that are foundational to all branches of scientific research—including the principle of convergence:
The principle of convergence:
It is typically more persuasive to obtain convergent evidence across multiple lines of inquiry, as opposed to seeking only consistent evidence within a single line of inquiry.
(This idea is also called evidential triangulation, or the variety-of-evidence thesis.)
What does this principle look like in practice? Many of you are likely familiar with the process of a jury trial, in which lawyers present a wide variety of evidence to support their arguments. Eyewitness testimony is certainly crucial, but a prosecutor’s argument is even more convincing when augmented with forensic evidence, surveillance footage, and expert witnesses. Arguments that include evidence from a variety of sources are more likely to be true.
Scientists employ the principle of convergence in a similar way. While we certainly need to create replicable experiments to confirm our findings, relying on results from a single kind of experiment alone is like calling the same witness to the stand to hear their testimony over and over again. When we fail to support our findings through multiple sources of evidence, we may not get the full picture. But testing a hypothesis with multiple distinct methods can guard against biases and other deficiencies that may exist in any one method.
For instance, scientists employ the principle of convergence today by combining interventional and observational studies to observe a particular system. When scientists intervene on a system to test its effect, their intervention may have unintended consequences that make it difficult to accurately interpret the results. Scientists therefore complement interventional experiments with purely observational studies, in which they simply observe the system without any explicit intervention. The combination of interventional and observational approaches is just one example of how scientists apply the principle of convergence across different streams of evidence, creating a fuller, more accurate picture of what they study.
A new chapter on contemplative science
The principle of convergence is a main theme of our newly published book chapter, titled “Contemplative Science: Expanding the Scope of Empiricism to Increase the Convergence of Evidence.” The chapter describes how professional contemplatives can provide a more comprehensive understanding of both consciousness and genuine well-being by contributing rigorous first- and second-person data:
- We define first-person data from contemplatives as “reports that contemplatives give regarding their experiences and insights.”
- We define second-person data as “assessments of contemplatives’ meditative abilities or other psychological and physical traits, which can be offered by other professionals–including psychologists, psychiatrists, clinicians, or other contemplatives.”
Professionally trained contemplatives can therefore increase the very possibility for convergent evidence by providing these additional streams of evidence. This first- and second-person data can then be integrated—and potentially converge—with the traditional third-person measures of modern science, such as electroencephalogram (EEG) and functional magnetic resonance imaging (fMRI).
Realizing the full potential of contemplative science
One of the truly unprecedented outcomes of this approach is that professional contemplatives will no longer be regarded simply as subjects, or participants, in other scientists’ protocols—akin to untrained undergrads, for example, who might occasionally choose to volunteer for psychological studies at their universities.
Instead, professional contemplatives who have completed years of rigorous training must be regarded as true colleagues to their scientific collaborators. This new role allows contemplatives not only to help design the research itself but also to be acknowledged for their ability to make genuine discoveries. As contemplative science continues to develop, it is essential for researchers, especially those steeped in the Western scientific tradition, to overcome the ethnocentrism that has, until now, denied contemplatives an equal role in scientific discussions.
Objectivity as intersubjective verification
To be sure, none of these developments is in any way an invitation to dispense with objectivity in science, even though we are advocating for first-person methods. The reason our approach does not depart from this scientific ideal is that objectivity has always been based on intersubjective verification, or agreement. That is, each scientist, firmly rooted in their subjective perspective on reality, must communicate with colleagues—who each have their own perspectives—to identify the aspects of their experiences that seem to be invariant across perspectives (another form of convergence). The stories we tell about these invariant features of reality therefore compose what we refer to as “objective reality.” Of course, a great deal of training is typically required to participate meaningfully in this process of intersubjective verification—as is the case with mathematicians’ evaluation of a proof, for example. The same is certainly true in the case of contemplative insights and discoveries.
In the West, such ideas go back at least as far as Bertrand Russell’s early-20th-century writings; and in the East, they go back at least as far as the Buddha’s teachings. Bertrand Russell makes a distinction between knowledge by acquaintance and knowledge by description, as discussed in his 1912 book The Problems of Philosophy. He argues that any time we describe something that exists, we necessarily do so in reference to “sense-data.” (bold emphasis mine):
“We shall say that we have acquaintance with anything of which we are directly aware, without the intermediary of any process of inference or any knowledge of truths. Thus in the presence of my table I am acquainted with the sense-data that make up the appearance of my table—its colour, shape, hardness, smoothness, etc.; all these are things of which I am immediately conscious when I am seeing and touching my table.
My knowledge of the table as a physical object, on the contrary, is not direct knowledge. Such as it is, it is obtained through acquaintance with the sense-data that make up the appearance of the table. We have seen that it is possible, without absurdity, to doubt whether there is a table at all, whereas it is not possible to doubt the sense-data. My knowledge of the table is of the kind which we shall call ‘knowledge by description’. The table is ‘the physical object which causes such-and-such sense-data’. This describes the table by means of the sense-data. In order to know anything at all about the table, we must know truths connecting it with things with which we have acquaintance…”
Now compare Russell’s words to those of the Buddha, who explains that our sense faculties—including, crucially, our faculty of mental perception—serve as the basis for descriptions of everything that can be said to exist (Sabba Sutta, SN 35:23):
[The Buddha said,] “And what, bhikkhus [monks], is the all? The eye and forms, the ear and sounds, the nose and odors, the tongue and tastes, the body and tactile objects, the mind and mental phenomena. This is called the all.
If anyone, bhikkhus, should speak thus: ‘Having rejected this all, I shall make known another all’—that would be a mere empty boast on his part. If he were questioned he would not be able to reply and, further, he would meet with vexation. For what reason? Because, bhikkhus, that would not be within his domain.”
What I take from these quotations is that scientists can maximize their objectivity precisely by understanding their own subjectivity, to know thyself, exactly as the Delphic oracle advised. To explain reality is to explain how it is that we see reality. As we state in the new chapter, all empirical inquiry is therefore “inescapably perspectival.”
If our subjective experiences form the foundation of how we understand the world around us, then our ability to refine our sense faculties directly determines how far we can push the boundaries of empirical and scientific inquiry. This constraint on scientific inquiry is precisely why contemplative science requires the development of contemplative technology: contemplatives cultivate advanced degrees of meditative concentration, like an astronomer who polishes the lens of their telescope, enabling reliable, high-resolution observations.
Practical implementation through mind labs
The conceptual framework we outline in our chapter is not merely theoretical or academic—it serves as the foundation for the practical work we do through our Mind Labs, Research, and Education programs, which employ these concepts in real-world settings. As we will begin the new year with a cohort of 13 contemplatives-in-training from six countries, the CCR’s Mind Lab program aims to demonstrate both the feasibility and utility of career paths in contemplative science. And as the CCR’s Pilot Study continues, now in its 47th month, we’re employing a novel research protocol that exemplifies the possibilities for evidential convergence central to our Research program.
How to access the chapter
For those interested, the entire chapter is currently available to read in the book preview on the Routledge website—follow the link and then click the “Preview Book” button, beneath the book’s thumbnail.
We believe this handbook entry will help researchers understand the full potential of contemplative science, envisioning it not just as the application of neuroscience tools on meditators, but as a broader use of contemplative methods to gain experiential insight into the nature of reality—a vision articulated by Dr. Wallace in 1986, when he coined the term “contemplative science” in his undergraduate honors thesis.
If you find this work inspiring, I encourage you to share this newsletter with others who may be interested in our work. You can also follow the link above to read the full chapter, or consider supporting our ongoing initiatives.
With gratitude for your interest and support,
Nicholas J. Matiasz
Scientific Program Director
Center for Contemplative Research
Dr. Natanya explains the importance of authentic contemplative insight for a full understanding of both mind and reality.
Dear CCR Community,
Throughout history, there have been individuals—and communities of individuals—who withdrew from what they recognized to be the confusion, darkness, and even hopelessness of their times to seek a deeper and everlasting dimension of reality, one that can be known from within the silence of a mind truly at rest.
In our present times, many luminaries have spoken of the crucial importance of the contemplative witness to a life of simplicity, humility, purity, kindness, generosity, prayer, and the steady cultivation of genuine well-being and wisdom.
But why should the contemplative training and way of life be so important when chaos abounds and there are so many crises in the world that call for our active, compassionate responses?
Here at the Miyo Samten Ling Hermitage of the CCR, we hold a very high standard for the name “contemplative,” a standard based in the 2,500-year-old Buddhist traditions of India and Tibet.
We use the term “contemplative” to translate the Sanskrit term yogin, which in its core Buddhist meaning refers to someone whose meditative concentration has reached a depth where he or she no longer perceives phenomena as possessing real characteristics from their own side. That is, a yogin’s mind is united with reality as it is, free of conceptual impositions.
It can be relatively easy to talk about phenomena not existing in the way that they appear, but it is another thing entirely to dwell in a state of unwavering meditation and realize experientially how all phenomena come into existence in dependence upon the mind, and that the mind itself is unlimited, vaster than space, and infinite in potential.
Contemplative insight into the nature of the mind and reality as a whole stands in direct opposition to the predominant modern view that mind is simply a byproduct of matter and that the objective universe exists independently of consciousness.
Typically, it takes tens of thousands of hours of meditation, cultivated over many years, to approach that kind of stability of mind unified with profound, experiential insight.
But someone trained as that kind of contemplative sees something about reality that most ordinary people cannot see; or at least cannot see consistently. And that seeing, that wisdom, can be the key to resolving catastrophic problems in our world—primarily when qualified contemplatives train others in time-tested methods for achieving exceptional mental balance. Such mental balance serves as the foundation for experiencing unprecedented dimensions of genuine well-being and gaining the ability to help heal the world and all its inhabitants from the many ills that beset humanity today, which we have inflicted upon ourselves.
Contemplative training begins with listening to teachings; it continues with applying our full intelligence to evaluating those teachings intellectually and experientially; and it comes to its culmination and final fruition through the ever-deepening practice of meditation, to open the heart and illuminate the mind.
Contemplatives-in-training come to Miyo Samten Ling already prepared with years of experience in listening, reflection, and also daily meditation. Some come initially for a retreat of 2–3 months in order to become accustomed to the experience of retreat—practicing throughout the day to further integrate teachings they have received prior to entering retreat.
Others immerse themselves in a retreat of six months to a year, testing their mettle in extended solitude and silence, dredging and purifying their psyches from the depths, and gaining life-transforming experiences in the process. Still others, who are totally dedicated to the contemplative way of life as their vocation, commit to open-ended retreats of many years. Among these, some will eventually complete a rigorous training in both theory and practice that will equip them not only as contemplatives with significant personal experience but also as teachers qualified to guide others through even the most advanced and challenging levels of practice.
Like graduate students who commit to a PhD program of 6-8 years in length in order to hone and demonstrate the skills needed to be considered a professional in their respective fields, long-term contemplatives-in-training will eventually proceed through a series of oral and written examinations assessing their full integration of theory and practice along the path to perfect enlightenment.
In keeping with Buddhist tradition, contemplatives will share the details of their meditative experience only with their personal spiritual mentors and in the rigorous context of confidential scientific studies, but will never be asked to talk about such private experience with others. Their qualifications as teachers and guides will be based on their demonstrated knowledge of the teachings and their maturity as practitioners flourishing in compassion, pure ethics, and exceptional mental balance, as well as contemplative realizations discussed only in private.
Such graduating contemplatives may then choose either to remain primarily in solitude, continuing in their contemplative way of life to achieve higher and higher realizations, or they may return to an active, socially engaged way of life, sharing their knowledge and insights in the field of education, with adults in all walks of life, and with other aspiring contemplatives.
Those who have achieved a high degree of meditative concentration imbued with insight into the nature of reality might well be termed “professional contemplatives,” ready to engage in formal research as contemplative scientists in their own right, at times in collaboration with physicists, psychologists, and neuroscientists. More on that topic to come soon…
We invite you to join us in supporting those courageously committed to the rigors and challenges of contemplative training, which is primarily carried out in solitude and silence within a community of like-minded practitioners. Humanity will rely on such realized contemplatives to become the heroes of tomorrow, when civilization will need their depths of insight and wellsprings of kindness more urgently than ever before in human history.
With abounding gratitude for your faith and generosity,
Co-Founder & Hermitage Director
Center for Contemplative Research
Taking you inside day-to-day operations at Miyo Samten Ling Hermitage
Last week, we shared some of the transformative experiences that our full-time contemplatives have had in retreat at Miyo Samten Ling Hermitage.
Experiences like these come from deep, consistent practice over the span of months and years. And as one learns quickly in retreat, it’s impossible to maintain such continuity in practice without the support of others.
That’s where Sitatara and Aaron come in, as our resident caretakers.
At the CCR, we have learned a great deal during our first few years of hosting long-term retreatants engaged in contemplative science. Sitatara and Aaron have worked with heartfelt commitment to provide a scaffold for retreatant flourishing, and to continuously improve our processes as we learn together.
Help with the unexpected
Imagine you’re in retreat. As you start to make breakfast after morning practice, you realize the electric burner doesn’t work.
If you were on your own, it could take days to fix the issue. You’d probably have to make multiple phone calls, schedule a repair visit, come up with a new meal plan in the meantime, and maybe even foot the bill for a whole new stove.
Not ideal for mind training practices that rely on minimizing distraction and external engagement.
But when one of our retreatants faced this exact issue, they didn’t have to worry.
They reached out to Aaron through established mechanisms that honor silence, and within hours, he was able to check the range, determine the problem, and make a repair plan. What could have been a huge disturbance for this retreatant’s continuity in practice was a minor bump in the road.
Safe solitude amid nature
The broken stove is just one example of Aaron clearing the path for our retreatants, allowing them to practice without distraction. Some other obstacles that Aaron has taken care of include:
- Failed water heaters
- Plumbing issues, including broken faucets and leaking pipes
- Nonviolent pest control (catching mice and wasp nests and releasing them in the countryside)
- Fixing leaks
On top of these emergency responses, Aaron handles the cumbersome but necessary maintenance required for homes in remote Colorado, including:
- Fire preparedness (clearing brush, chimney cleaning, checking fire extinguishers)
- Bringing buildings up to code to meet insurance requirements
- Septic management
- Firewood sourcing
- Snowplowing and shoveling
- Finding the right local experts to help with fixes
Because Aaron manages all of this work, our retreatants live free from the anxieties and responsibilities of managing a retreat dwelling, while reaping all of the benefits.
If you feel so moved, please consider donating to our general fund to support the solitude and serenity of our retreatants. We are so grateful for your support in our shared mission!